"Douglas: Will you keep out all the sadness?
Max: I have a sadness shield that keeps out all the sadness, and it's big enough for all of us."
This is from the movie "Where the Wild Things Are" when Max has just been appointed the Wild Things' king.
In so many ways I wish this were possible. To never have to hurt or ache again. To be pleased all the time. Life would be so much easier. But I think that's the point. We're not supposed to be happy 100% of the time. Without sorrow and pain, the pleasant, happy, and enjoyable moments wouldn't be as pleasant, happy, and enjoyable. Without sadness everything would be dull and unimportant.
Recently, I have been struggling with some sadness. I am sad to leave my friends for 3 months. I am sad about relationships that have dwindled or disappeared this year. But for all the sadness that is in my life, there is a hundred times more happiness. Sure, I have those days when I just want to crawl in a hole and die. But the weekends spent adventuring around the city with Sara Beth, Katie, and Lyle are so much better because of it.
Without sadness, there is no happiness. God didn't put us on this earth to go through life without any feelings and to just go through the motions. He wanted us to be joyful! A sadness shield might sound nice, but how are we supposed to take advantage of the blissful and "on top of the world" moments if we don't know what it is like to be sorrowful and heartbroken?
Monday, April 19, 2010
Sunday, April 18, 2010
Your love is my drug.
Two posts in one day. Bold move. I know. But Leila inspired me, so I decided to steal her idea and tell everyone how much they mean to me considering summer is quickly approaching and I won't see them for 3 long months. Please don't think of me as a copycat (although, I suppose I am. But remember that imitation is the most sincere form of flattery).
Lyle, because I stole this from you I figure I should start with you. It's hard to believe that HES is almost over. We've had some...times. I remember last semester you and Colleen were in the same Calculus class, and I was so jealous of your inside jokes. I wanted so desperately to be your friend, almost as bad as I want to be friends with the improv kids. And now we are friends. And it is everything I could ever have imagined. What are we going to do next year without REP and Ryan? AND JEFF! I'm gonna miss that kid. I know we've really only been friends for 2 or 3 months, but to me it feels like it's been forever. You are one of the funniest people I know, and you have such a kind heart. I can't wait to see what kind of shenanigans occur next year!!
ROOMZ! You are quite literally the best roommate I could have asked for my freshman year of college. From the moments our parents met, I knew we were going to be best friends fo life! I have never met anyone who attracts the police like you do, or someone as willing to laugh at any situation that is thrown at them. I admire that so much about you. Please promise that we will still talk and eat lunch or something together from time to time next year. No one makes me laugh as hard as you do. You are so full of life, and I think your ugly dolls would agree. Keep it classy!
Katie, my future roomie. You can take any situation and make it a positive one no matter what. You are one of the best people I know at giving advice and consoling people. You are also super stylish. Never forget about our chin videos and stalking people at meal times. I am more than excited to live with you next year!! I know in some ways it has been kind of a tough year for you, and I want you to know that you are one of the kindest, most giving, most loving, and most caring people I have ever met. Don't let anyone tell you that you aren't good enough, because you are. You can do anything. You are such an awesome person and I have soooo much respect for you! I look up to you so much.
Sara Beth, you're crazy. I have never met anyone that I can do absolutely nothing with, but somehow still have the time of my life. You can always cheer me up, and you always know exactly what to say. You love everyone for who they are. In so many ways I wish I could be more like you. I wish I could be as free as you. As giving as you. As loving as you. What am I going to do all summer without our adventures? They've become such a regular occurence on the weekends. I hope you have a fabulous time in Hungary in summer and don't forget to blog EVERY SINGLE DAY! I am for sure coming to visit and you better be prepared. I know I am not exactly the best Christian, but you have helped me get in touch with God a lot this year, and I think that has really helped me. So butter my butt, and call me a biscuit!
Hilary, I don't even know where to begin. I literally pee myself talking to you because you are so freaking funny. I love that you are so comfortable with yourself and don't care what anyone thinks about you. I think it is so funny how you over analyze everything. I will never forget when we were driving back from getting your nails done and you were freaking out about making that phone call. I love your blog as well, but it makes me a bit self-conscious when I read it because it is so flipping good!! You truly live life to the fullest and don't take anyone or anything foregranted. Have an awesome summer and be prepare to tell me some awesome stories when I see you!
Mary Jordina, you are the trendiest person ever to walk the face of the earth.
You guys have all had a major impact on my life this year, and I am amazed how close I have become to each and every one of you in such a short period of time. Three months is going to feel like so long, but I am sure we will pick up right where we left off. You all better stay in touch! I hope you guys have the best summer everrrrrrr and be sure to keep it klassy :)
Lyle, because I stole this from you I figure I should start with you. It's hard to believe that HES is almost over. We've had some...times. I remember last semester you and Colleen were in the same Calculus class, and I was so jealous of your inside jokes. I wanted so desperately to be your friend, almost as bad as I want to be friends with the improv kids. And now we are friends. And it is everything I could ever have imagined. What are we going to do next year without REP and Ryan? AND JEFF! I'm gonna miss that kid. I know we've really only been friends for 2 or 3 months, but to me it feels like it's been forever. You are one of the funniest people I know, and you have such a kind heart. I can't wait to see what kind of shenanigans occur next year!!
ROOMZ! You are quite literally the best roommate I could have asked for my freshman year of college. From the moments our parents met, I knew we were going to be best friends fo life! I have never met anyone who attracts the police like you do, or someone as willing to laugh at any situation that is thrown at them. I admire that so much about you. Please promise that we will still talk and eat lunch or something together from time to time next year. No one makes me laugh as hard as you do. You are so full of life, and I think your ugly dolls would agree. Keep it classy!
Katie, my future roomie. You can take any situation and make it a positive one no matter what. You are one of the best people I know at giving advice and consoling people. You are also super stylish. Never forget about our chin videos and stalking people at meal times. I am more than excited to live with you next year!! I know in some ways it has been kind of a tough year for you, and I want you to know that you are one of the kindest, most giving, most loving, and most caring people I have ever met. Don't let anyone tell you that you aren't good enough, because you are. You can do anything. You are such an awesome person and I have soooo much respect for you! I look up to you so much.
Sara Beth, you're crazy. I have never met anyone that I can do absolutely nothing with, but somehow still have the time of my life. You can always cheer me up, and you always know exactly what to say. You love everyone for who they are. In so many ways I wish I could be more like you. I wish I could be as free as you. As giving as you. As loving as you. What am I going to do all summer without our adventures? They've become such a regular occurence on the weekends. I hope you have a fabulous time in Hungary in summer and don't forget to blog EVERY SINGLE DAY! I am for sure coming to visit and you better be prepared. I know I am not exactly the best Christian, but you have helped me get in touch with God a lot this year, and I think that has really helped me. So butter my butt, and call me a biscuit!
Hilary, I don't even know where to begin. I literally pee myself talking to you because you are so freaking funny. I love that you are so comfortable with yourself and don't care what anyone thinks about you. I think it is so funny how you over analyze everything. I will never forget when we were driving back from getting your nails done and you were freaking out about making that phone call. I love your blog as well, but it makes me a bit self-conscious when I read it because it is so flipping good!! You truly live life to the fullest and don't take anyone or anything foregranted. Have an awesome summer and be prepare to tell me some awesome stories when I see you!
Mary Jordina, you are the trendiest person ever to walk the face of the earth.
You guys have all had a major impact on my life this year, and I am amazed how close I have become to each and every one of you in such a short period of time. Three months is going to feel like so long, but I am sure we will pick up right where we left off. You all better stay in touch! I hope you guys have the best summer everrrrrrr and be sure to keep it klassy :)
Sass-hole.
I would like to formally apologize to all those people I was sassy to yesterday.
It was just one of those days.
I know I can win many of them over with a fabulous blog post, however, so that is exactly what I plan on doing. Here is a recap of my weekend.
FRIDAY:
Well it was Furman Engaged Friday, which to me meant no classes. I'm not really sure anyone knows what it was. I derived that it was basically a bunch of people presenting research. In the morning, Lyle and I went to one by the HES department. They were supposed to be doing hydrostatic weighing. I couldn't exactly tell you if they did, though, because they didn't speak to us and we couldn't see crap. We did get to sit outside for 20 minutes due to a fire drill, though. Needless to say, not the best start to the day.
Later that day, we went to some percussion ensemble thing. We all expected it to be like "Drumline." It wasn't. It was by some Alaskan who was trying to make it sound like nature. The musicians moved around and played different things. It felt like I was being initiated into a cult, which is cool I guess?
Relay for Life was that night, so SB, Lyle, and I hung out there for a while. Watched the luminary service, shed a few tears. It was nice. Then we headed back to the dorm where we proceeded to choreograph a full dance routine to the timeless classic "C'est la Vie" by B*Witched. Good times... That took us almost 3 hours and much of our dignity. Around 1, I walked with SB. Then hit the hay.
SATURDAY:
I slept a little late and missed breakfast, but at least the FUtones concert was that day. It was rather splendid. I only wish I could be half as talented as some of those singers. Lyle and I have discussed many a time about how we want to be good at something. Anything. We're not picky. But yeah. It was fun.
We then ordered some Chinese in (DELICIOUS) and watched some Freaks and Geeks (CLASSIC). That night was the final Improv show. It was hilarious...although I'm not so sure everyone else found it as funny as I did. I tend to have a slightly warped sense of humor.
We got back and I had full intentions of going to sleep, but when I turned on the TV "Bring It On Again" was on. How could I resist? So I ended up staying awake until 2:30. Oops.
SUNDAY:
I ate brunch. The rest remains to be seen.
Man...I feel like my posts are starting to go downhill. They'll get better, I promise.
It was just one of those days.
I know I can win many of them over with a fabulous blog post, however, so that is exactly what I plan on doing. Here is a recap of my weekend.
FRIDAY:
Well it was Furman Engaged Friday, which to me meant no classes. I'm not really sure anyone knows what it was. I derived that it was basically a bunch of people presenting research. In the morning, Lyle and I went to one by the HES department. They were supposed to be doing hydrostatic weighing. I couldn't exactly tell you if they did, though, because they didn't speak to us and we couldn't see crap. We did get to sit outside for 20 minutes due to a fire drill, though. Needless to say, not the best start to the day.
Later that day, we went to some percussion ensemble thing. We all expected it to be like "Drumline." It wasn't. It was by some Alaskan who was trying to make it sound like nature. The musicians moved around and played different things. It felt like I was being initiated into a cult, which is cool I guess?
Relay for Life was that night, so SB, Lyle, and I hung out there for a while. Watched the luminary service, shed a few tears. It was nice. Then we headed back to the dorm where we proceeded to choreograph a full dance routine to the timeless classic "C'est la Vie" by B*Witched. Good times... That took us almost 3 hours and much of our dignity. Around 1, I walked with SB. Then hit the hay.
SATURDAY:
I slept a little late and missed breakfast, but at least the FUtones concert was that day. It was rather splendid. I only wish I could be half as talented as some of those singers. Lyle and I have discussed many a time about how we want to be good at something. Anything. We're not picky. But yeah. It was fun.
We then ordered some Chinese in (DELICIOUS) and watched some Freaks and Geeks (CLASSIC). That night was the final Improv show. It was hilarious...although I'm not so sure everyone else found it as funny as I did. I tend to have a slightly warped sense of humor.
We got back and I had full intentions of going to sleep, but when I turned on the TV "Bring It On Again" was on. How could I resist? So I ended up staying awake until 2:30. Oops.
SUNDAY:
I ate brunch. The rest remains to be seen.
Man...I feel like my posts are starting to go downhill. They'll get better, I promise.
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Don't Stop Believin'
So tonight is a big night. GLEE BEGINS! Probably the highlight of my week. And in its honor my friends and I are dressing up as the characters and made some delicious Glee themed goodies. I can't say what they are right now though...it's a surprise.
Also, please look at Sara Beth's blog. She transcribed a nice tale told by my dear friend, Lyle, today. Apparently she's a pro storyteller, which we somehow managed to not find out until this afternoon. BUMMER!
Additionally, may I please just tell you how awkward my life can be sometimes. Katie and I are avid people watchers. We purposefully sit at tables overlooking the fraternities just so we can observe them. Nothing like a good bromance. But for some reason when I am watching these people, it gets into my head that somehow they can't see me. I am constantly caught staring at someone when they look over and give me a dirty look. Mildly uncomfortable, let me tell you. I know some of you guys out there feel what I am going through. In fact, Katie and I talk about this often. I was staring at her the other day through a window, actually. And, once again, I felt invisible. It is times like these that I think an invisibility cloak would be quite handy dandy.
Another thing that will be pretty awk here in the next few weeks is the name of this blog. I am sure you all noticed that it is called "Sorry for Being a Freshman." But freshman year is going to be over here very soon. And I am going to feel so foolish next year when I am a sophomore and I am writing on a blog about a freshman. Story of my life!
Anywho. That's it? I have so much trouble ending these things...it's kind of like when you're talking to someone on the phone and just saying bye doesn't seem like enough. So then you kinda dance around actually hanging up, and end up talking for another 20 minutes. Or maybe that only happens to me? It's whatever.
Ok. Bye.
Also, please look at Sara Beth's blog. She transcribed a nice tale told by my dear friend, Lyle, today. Apparently she's a pro storyteller, which we somehow managed to not find out until this afternoon. BUMMER!
Additionally, may I please just tell you how awkward my life can be sometimes. Katie and I are avid people watchers. We purposefully sit at tables overlooking the fraternities just so we can observe them. Nothing like a good bromance. But for some reason when I am watching these people, it gets into my head that somehow they can't see me. I am constantly caught staring at someone when they look over and give me a dirty look. Mildly uncomfortable, let me tell you. I know some of you guys out there feel what I am going through. In fact, Katie and I talk about this often. I was staring at her the other day through a window, actually. And, once again, I felt invisible. It is times like these that I think an invisibility cloak would be quite handy dandy.
Another thing that will be pretty awk here in the next few weeks is the name of this blog. I am sure you all noticed that it is called "Sorry for Being a Freshman." But freshman year is going to be over here very soon. And I am going to feel so foolish next year when I am a sophomore and I am writing on a blog about a freshman. Story of my life!
Anywho. That's it? I have so much trouble ending these things...it's kind of like when you're talking to someone on the phone and just saying bye doesn't seem like enough. So then you kinda dance around actually hanging up, and end up talking for another 20 minutes. Or maybe that only happens to me? It's whatever.
Ok. Bye.
Monday, April 12, 2010
Fag-onomics.
I am sitting in my Queer Economics class (Fag-onomics as Lyle, Mary Jordina, and I so fondly renamed it). There are 45 minutes left. And it is killing me. So why not update my blog?
About 3 weeks left of school, and I am nowhere near prepared for it to end. I am ready for classes to be over, I guess. But 3 months away from some of the best people I have ever met is going to be rough. Plus, I am barely going to see some of them for the final weekends here!!
Next weekend is beach weekend, and I decided not to go this year. It's one of the last weekends and many of my friends aren't even going to be here!! Plus with finals coming up, our heads will be so buried in our books that we won't be able to have barely any fun.
At least I got to see everyone this past weekend...not very much, but still. We got ice cream Friday, but then Tri-Delt formal was Saturday. Everyone looked so beautiful!! Lyle and I were pretty jealous. We had an awesome breakfast Sunday, and it was a beautiful day so we could lounge around outside. We kind of attempted to hang a hammock, although we failed miserably.
Eh...I am failing at writing this blog. But a bad update is better than no update.
I'll just stop while I'm behind.
About 3 weeks left of school, and I am nowhere near prepared for it to end. I am ready for classes to be over, I guess. But 3 months away from some of the best people I have ever met is going to be rough. Plus, I am barely going to see some of them for the final weekends here!!
Next weekend is beach weekend, and I decided not to go this year. It's one of the last weekends and many of my friends aren't even going to be here!! Plus with finals coming up, our heads will be so buried in our books that we won't be able to have barely any fun.
At least I got to see everyone this past weekend...not very much, but still. We got ice cream Friday, but then Tri-Delt formal was Saturday. Everyone looked so beautiful!! Lyle and I were pretty jealous. We had an awesome breakfast Sunday, and it was a beautiful day so we could lounge around outside. We kind of attempted to hang a hammock, although we failed miserably.
Eh...I am failing at writing this blog. But a bad update is better than no update.
I'll just stop while I'm behind.
Sunday, March 14, 2010
SPRING BREAK 2010
Oh man...I'm embarrassed. It has been wayyyyyy too long. But I'm finally just going to buckle down and spit it all out. There have been so many events, so be prepared to read your life away on this one.
Let's start with spring break:
I went home for spring break, and lucky for me my parents let me fly home. SO MUCH EASIER THAN DRIVING. The flights to get home are a little odd though...I am on a one hour flight then a 15 minute flight. Kind of pointless, but significantly better than the alternative. On my first flight I was lucky enough to secure myself a window seat, and even luckier not to have any one sit next to me. Unfortunately, on my next flight I sat next to a body builder. I had no knowledge of the Arnold Classic Bodybuilding Competition being in town, however I did suffer the consequences. The man I sat next to looked and smelled as though he had just painted himself with orange acryllic paint. His head looked like he had had hair plugs at one point, but backed out, leaving him with odd hair lines around his skull. This man was wearing a shirt that looked like it had been plucked straight out of a 70s disco and jeans that were hugging him in places jeans should never be hugging. Needless to say, this man was quite a character. When I finally got home I wandered around the airport looking for my Dad. He refused to answer his phone, so I wandered aimlessly around the airport for a good 20 minutes before I finally found him.
The next day I left for Washington, DC. Sure, it sounds like LOADS of fun. False. I was heading to DC to be a spectator at my younger sister's competitive cheerleading competition. Now I want you to imagine the cheerleader stereotype. Rude, little, loud, peppy, and for lack of a better word, skanky. Multiply that times 100 and you'll understand what just one of these cheerleaders is like. And there were thousands of them!! I was only there for 3 days, but by the time the trip was over I was about ready to shank a cheerleader.
Other than that, my spring break was fairly uneventful. I didn't have a car, so I didn't see too many people. But it was nice to be home and spend some time with the fam.
I got back to school a week later, and things got pretty rowdy...
I don't know why, but the next two weekends were two of the best weekends of my life. It's not like we did much, but I have some of the best friends ever and they make me pee my pantalones ALL THE TIME! We went putt putting, to Chili's, got ice cream, went to Olive Garden, drove around the city, sketched around campus, and took approximately 500 pictures total. Or I guess I should say Sara Beth took the pictures...:)
And then it was Easter Break.
I went to the ATL with my friend, Katie. WOOTWOOT!! It was awesome. We ate crappy food, spent time with her little brother, got pedicures, did some shopping. And then we came back to school and had two whole days with barely anyone here. It was glorious! We went to P.F. Chang's for Easter dinner...classy. We discussed the sexuality of our waiter. We went on a run around the lake (shocking and mildly embarrassing).
But now we have finally been reunited with my fav girls!!! And tomorrow is LEILA'S BIRTHDAYYYY!!! And now we only have like 4 more weeks of school...it's INSANE IN THE MEMBRANE; INSANE, GOT NO BRAIN. I am going to miss these girls so much. It makes me so sad just thinking about it. 3 MONTHS AWAY FROM THEM! But it will be nice to get to spend a significant amount of time with some of my friends from home too (CAITLIN SIMMONDS :))
Okay, well I'm going to try and keep you guys updated a little better. Because this was just shameful.
OvEr AnD oUt
Let's start with spring break:
I went home for spring break, and lucky for me my parents let me fly home. SO MUCH EASIER THAN DRIVING. The flights to get home are a little odd though...I am on a one hour flight then a 15 minute flight. Kind of pointless, but significantly better than the alternative. On my first flight I was lucky enough to secure myself a window seat, and even luckier not to have any one sit next to me. Unfortunately, on my next flight I sat next to a body builder. I had no knowledge of the Arnold Classic Bodybuilding Competition being in town, however I did suffer the consequences. The man I sat next to looked and smelled as though he had just painted himself with orange acryllic paint. His head looked like he had had hair plugs at one point, but backed out, leaving him with odd hair lines around his skull. This man was wearing a shirt that looked like it had been plucked straight out of a 70s disco and jeans that were hugging him in places jeans should never be hugging. Needless to say, this man was quite a character. When I finally got home I wandered around the airport looking for my Dad. He refused to answer his phone, so I wandered aimlessly around the airport for a good 20 minutes before I finally found him.
The next day I left for Washington, DC. Sure, it sounds like LOADS of fun. False. I was heading to DC to be a spectator at my younger sister's competitive cheerleading competition. Now I want you to imagine the cheerleader stereotype. Rude, little, loud, peppy, and for lack of a better word, skanky. Multiply that times 100 and you'll understand what just one of these cheerleaders is like. And there were thousands of them!! I was only there for 3 days, but by the time the trip was over I was about ready to shank a cheerleader.
Other than that, my spring break was fairly uneventful. I didn't have a car, so I didn't see too many people. But it was nice to be home and spend some time with the fam.
I got back to school a week later, and things got pretty rowdy...
I don't know why, but the next two weekends were two of the best weekends of my life. It's not like we did much, but I have some of the best friends ever and they make me pee my pantalones ALL THE TIME! We went putt putting, to Chili's, got ice cream, went to Olive Garden, drove around the city, sketched around campus, and took approximately 500 pictures total. Or I guess I should say Sara Beth took the pictures...:)
And then it was Easter Break.
I went to the ATL with my friend, Katie. WOOTWOOT!! It was awesome. We ate crappy food, spent time with her little brother, got pedicures, did some shopping. And then we came back to school and had two whole days with barely anyone here. It was glorious! We went to P.F. Chang's for Easter dinner...classy. We discussed the sexuality of our waiter. We went on a run around the lake (shocking and mildly embarrassing).
But now we have finally been reunited with my fav girls!!! And tomorrow is LEILA'S BIRTHDAYYYY!!! And now we only have like 4 more weeks of school...it's INSANE IN THE MEMBRANE; INSANE, GOT NO BRAIN. I am going to miss these girls so much. It makes me so sad just thinking about it. 3 MONTHS AWAY FROM THEM! But it will be nice to get to spend a significant amount of time with some of my friends from home too (CAITLIN SIMMONDS :))
Okay, well I'm going to try and keep you guys updated a little better. Because this was just shameful.
OvEr AnD oUt
Monday, March 1, 2010
Really, Mother Nature?
So for those of you who don't know, my original place of origin is Ohio. That's right. I am a die-hard Buckeye fan, and it pains me greatly that I was not able to attend most of the games this past year. But as I was beginning my college search a couple years back, I knew that I wanted to go to school someplace warmer, and hopefully with little to no snow. I ended up in South Carolina. Little did I know, the weather here is just as fickle as in the O-H. It will be 65 degrees one day, and there will be a winter weather advisory the next day. I just can't keep up! MAKE UP YOUR MIND MOTHER NATURE! How am I supposed to know what laundry to do when one day I'm in shorts and the next I'm wearing long john's under my jeans? Granted, it is significantly better than the 3+ feet of snow Ohio has gotten recently, but I am definitely ready for a more consistent weather pattern.
Sorry for the rant...I just needed to get that off my chest. And I have decided in honor of spring break next week, I will try not to post anything school/work-related. Unless, of course, something REALLY funny or SUPER important happens. Then I will update you.
Because I love y'all so much, and just want to make your week a little happier I am going to leave you with this video. I don't know how many of you watch the Potter Puppet Pals, but I have recently been watching it a lot. Here is one of my and Katie's (shout out!) favorites.
Sorry for the rant...I just needed to get that off my chest. And I have decided in honor of spring break next week, I will try not to post anything school/work-related. Unless, of course, something REALLY funny or SUPER important happens. Then I will update you.
Because I love y'all so much, and just want to make your week a little happier I am going to leave you with this video. I don't know how many of you watch the Potter Puppet Pals, but I have recently been watching it a lot. Here is one of my and Katie's (shout out!) favorites.
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